He wants it all
The thing about encountering the Lord’s forgiveness and grace is its potent and pervasive nature. It wants in every nook and cranny. It leaves no stone unturned. It doesn’t just forgive the recent past. It wants it all.
Even old men find themselves giving more and more over to it. It beckons “Give in! Give up! No more messing around, hiding or crafting your false self.
Let your truest nature live free.