Our enemy plays a little game of torment with us.
He takes time to play into the illusion we are in full control of our lives. That if we make the right decisions bad things will stop happening and only good things will go our way. Preachers have even preached it. Did I say the trickster’s endgame is torment?
The trickster will play it up for a season and when that bad thing comes along he will tell you how bad you are, how you being in control couldn’t handle it. He will zing guilt, condemnation, shame, shock, disbelief and despair. You will inventory every bad thing you have done seeking causation.
Deep fear and paranoia may come on the scene. Then things will get better. You may even experience success. You may get sucked in to the idea that the success you have is fully in your control. The trickster is lying but it is one of those you want to believe. You did this. You became significant. You made yourself. Get ready. He, in his sadistic nature, will pull the rug right from under you.
Then things will get better again. Time will heal. Stuff will get easier. Your exterior may even get harder. The cycle will ensue. And your life seems to be on a see saw of sorts. Striving for control, achieving some success, then devastating distractions, then success again.
Yet there is an antidote to this roller coaster. It is to relinquish control. To proverbially give in. To release it all. To find ways, prayers, actions, devices to give in to the Father and His plan. I am not, you are not in control. There is a plan. It does not exempt us from pain or suffering but it does promise us Life.
To surrender, that is the only antidote to this cycle of life.